Today is Pi Day, 3.14, a geeky holiday if ever there was one. I’ve always managed to miss “celebrating” Pi Day, but today West Coast Live reminded me! Yay!
Today I’ve been missing my best friend and my boyfriend, both gone from my life, neither really retrievable. You’d think that after two and a half years I’d be done with the boyfriend and that since the decision to end the friendship was mine I wouldn’t be having hang-ups, but I’m not and I do.
I miss the people. I miss Joel’s comforting presence and his gentleness, and even his fanaticism. I miss Maranda’s solidity and willingness to back me and quirky sense of humor. And I miss the sense that there is someone who really, really cares about me. I mean, I realize my parents and close friends care, but there’s a void in my life where Maranda and Joel used to be, where my Nan-chan used to be, where I had people close to me consistently. Living alone has its perks, but one of the definite cons is that I live in isolation, really, my life only distantly related to someone else’s. I have friends, close friends in some cases, but no one that I call every week, much less every day. I sent a package to Nan today, but I can’t tell the other two that I miss them. But I do, no matter what I’ve said or done, I do miss them.
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